Relevance

For you just a side note
Another step on the way
But for me a desaster
That made my world sway

You said: 'I don't think 
this is clinically relevant'
How should I have known
What you really meant?

Not relevant ever
Someone's weird idea?
Generally relevant 
but just not here?

I knew I was angry,
judgemental, unfair?
I checked underneath
to find a huge tear

In my fabric of life
my idea of myself
memories and thoughts
and who knows what else

I found confusion and fear
linked to deep pain
Very relevant this is
to me it was plain

You cannot blunder
around a topic like this
Once it made me want to die 
And again I see that abyss

It was your job to hold,
accompany, explore 
That's not what this was!
Really not your best score

I will keep showing
but it's because I must
and it will be hard work
to repair and find trust.