I started my journey with defiant confidence. A sense of endless possibilities. A young mind, ready to learn what ever would come it’s way. Determined and without doubt that what I was looking for could be done and I would do it. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
What I had not counted on, was that I wasn’t free to go on this journey alone – and what that would mean. That it would be years for me to reach what I thought of as my goal. And that by the time I got there, I would have doubted myself and others many times. That I would have felt like I failed many times. That I would have grown unsure if I was aiming at the right goal at all, that I even have had to abandon it, lost on overgrown tracks and trails, for a journey<\/em> to go on. <\/p>\n\n\n\n I have now reached part of what I aimed for when I started out – but I am far from who I was then. I don’t quite know who I grew into and where that person wants to go from here. Still weary from the journey, much harder, longer, lonelier than I could have imagined and wanted to admit.<\/p>\n\n\n\n It becomes more and more clear how I dragged my companions and myself through mud and thorns. Claiming what I was trying to do was just. And while it was at times, I wasn’t treating my companions the way I wanted them to treat the world. I was proud, demanding, dismissive of their hardship and ungrateful of their company, never having wanted it in the first place. <\/p>\n\n\n\n However, this task is not a one man’s job and I would have never come this far alone. We journeyed together because we need each other and can’t do without – and I should take it to heart for the miles to come. <\/p>\n\n\n\n I just wish someone could have helped me understand sooner, helped us understand sooner. Or even better, stopped us from having to go along these and twisted roads without a guide. <\/p>\n\n\n\n For in the dark, one might lose themselves and take a long time to gather again. <\/p>","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" I started my journey with defiant confidence. A sense of endless possibilities. A young mind, ready to learn what ever would come it’s way. Determined and without doubt that what I was looking for could be done and I would do it. What I had not counted on, was that I wasn’t free to go […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[20],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-156","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-liam"],"blocksy_meta":{"styles_descriptor":{"styles":{"desktop":"","tablet":"","mobile":""},"google_fonts":[],"version":6}},"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/oneormore.net\/de\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/156","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/oneormore.net\/de\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/oneormore.net\/de\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/oneormore.net\/de\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/oneormore.net\/de\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=156"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/oneormore.net\/de\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/156\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":157,"href":"https:\/\/oneormore.net\/de\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/156\/revisions\/157"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/oneormore.net\/de\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=156"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/oneormore.net\/de\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=156"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/oneormore.net\/de\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=156"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}